As Mother’s Day is coming to an end, I can’t help but feel such emptiness in my heart. My first Mother’s Day without Tyson. People may say he was just a dog, but to me he was my baby. Like most moms I was there when he started dog obedience school. When he got and ear infection I had to make sure he took his antibiotics. When he had the stomach flu and he refused to eat out of his bowl, I hand fed him to make sure he ate. I like most moms rushed him to the hospital when his face started swelling because he was stung by a bee and he was allergic. I would cry like a baby when he would get his shots, the sad look in his eyes wondering why I let the vet poke him. Then there was the time he had a growth on his elbow. When the vet told me he had to do a biopsy because it could be cancer. CANCER? I wanted to fall to the floor and cry my eyes out. How could this be? I waited 3 days to get the results. The 3 longest days of my life. Then the vet called and told me my little guy was okay.
Oh Tyson I miss you so much. I Love you baby guy and the only comfort I have on days like this. Is knowing you’re with my dad now. Biting his ear and him playing with yours. Sitting right by him like you always did. Mom Loves you baby guy. Thank you for Loving me unconditionally.
Thank you for the beautiful friendship.
I miss you and I Love you.
I just want to change this world, by changing what’s inside of me…
Just let me dream…
Song by one of my favorite bands oZomatli. I do want to change this world. If I can help and impact somebody’s life. Then I did exactly that. I’ve changed the world.
My point today is that life is hard to deal with sometimes. We experience loss. Sometimes to the point we think we can’t handle it. To the point where we think we are broken and we won’t ever be okay again. Stay in those feelings for as long as you need to. Know that it’s okay to cry as much as you need to. Its okay to be emotional. It’s okay to talk about it. It’s going to make you stronger and I promise you will learn from it. I promise that even if your life isn’t the same after. You will learn to live differently, but you will be okay.
Those of you that know somebody dealing with some sort of loss. Be it a parent, spouse, child, friend, pet and so on. Be there for them, let them cry to you, hug them, listen to them and most importantly tell them you LOVE them.
To my sister, my friend Tracey and my best friend Carmen. THANK YOU for being there for me when I’ve needed you and for listening. For allowing me to cry and for never judging me. I appreciate you and I Love you.
Yesterday beat me up. At one point I wondered how I was going to get past the day and come out okay. Then I saw these pictures of Tyson.
No matter what was going on and I truly mean this when I say it. Tyson would always make me happy.
Thank you baby guy for Loving your mom as much as you did. I miss you baby and I Love you.
Happy Tyson Tuesday.
Thank you Mother Earth for beautiful places like Aruba.
The rain in Southern California has been out of control. We need it and I’m happy to see more green as the days have gone by this week. So thank you Mother Earth for beautifying our planet a little more.
Today I want to thank the United States post office. Especially our mail carrier of 30 years Gus. In another post I will go into detail why Gus is so special and important to us. Thanks Gus for bringing us our mail the past few days in the horrible California rain.
Thank you also to all the UPS and Fedex drivers delivering packages. Thanks to Amazon as well. With all this rain and minor floods, you’ve managed to make sure we receive our packages in time.
Huge thanks to companies like Door Dash, Postmates, GrubHub for delivering our food when we are too chicken to drive in the rain or too afraid to get wet.
Uber and Lyft drivers. THANK YOU.
You all are appreciated more than we ever tell you.
It’s amazing that even fences can’t stop Mother Earth from being amazing.
I Love walking this trail on my way to and from work. I’ve seen so many changes in the trees and plants. But the one constant is Mother Earth is always brining new greenery to life.
These aren’t the greatest photos. But if you Love Mother Earth as much as I do. They will make your heart as happy as they make mine.
Respect your Mother.
I can’t believe how fast this week flew by. It may have something to do with me being off Monday and Tuesday. Either way. Trying to keep up with my thank you Thursday.
Huge thank you to train conductors. You don’t realize how much shit they take from people. If the train breaks down, we blame the conductor. If the train is running late, we blame the conductor. If people are rude and don’t move over to make seats available, we blame the conductor. If we miss the train because we are the ones late, we blame the conductor. If somebody pushes you out of the way to get on the train before you, we blame the conductor. If we miss our stop, we blame the conductor.
So thank you conductors for getting me to work and home daily. For taking me to explore different places. But most important for being nice even after a long day of dealing with peoples attitude. Today and always I am thankful for you.
I promised my niece I’d update as often as possible. So here I am, on the train headed home and I decided to update.
I Love these throw blanket kits from Joann’s.
Not only are they super easy to make, I don’t have to worry about coordinating fabric and they so warm. You’re supposed to cute 1 inch strips all the way around and tie the strips and your blanket is done. It’s usually what I do when I make them for other people. But for these 2 I decided to sew them. I like mine sewn better than tied.
This was my last project of 2018. For my nephew Kieran.
This one I made for myself.
Uh oh my train arrived at my destination, I better hurry off before conductor closed the doors and I get stuck on there until the next stop.
I think I was in bed by midnight. No suit case packed, no grapes, no money, and none of the other superstitious stuff. I was almost falling asleep when I heard my sister yell out Happy New Year!!! She quickly said good night after that.
I don’t have any resolutions. Do we have to have them? If we have them, do we have to talk about it? I’m not one of those people who has to talk about stuff like that. Kind of like when people give stuff up for lent. They spent 40 days saying over and over how they can’t have certain things because they have it up for lent. WHY?!?!?! Give it up and shut up about it LOL.
I’ve never been a fan of resolutions. BUT I am a firm believer in what you do on the first of the year, you will continue to do the rest of the year. I usually have a list of things I do. This year was way different. It was such a lazy day lol. So I hope I don’t spend the entire year being lazy. For the first time in years I watched the Rose Parade. I watched Christmas movies. I made some paper flowers, something I do hope to do all year long. It’s only 8:30 and I already forgot what else I did today LOL.
I hope you have an awesome 2019.
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